Seniors..

Yes. you too jerry! lol, for anyone who heard me say that on sunday.. i appreciate you humoring me with your laughs; whether they were audible or not. i feel the love! but back to the title. there are some things about being a senior that are just flat out appealing.
1) You can just not go to school and nobody will think less of you. some of my friends tried to use it this last year, with mixed results. let's see, how many have truancy officers now..?
2) You are looked up to in athletics and in social activities. this will be one that i cherish and take full advantage of in the next 12 months.
3) I wont HAVE to have a full schedule second semester!

I hate starting lists and not be able to think of a lot of things that were driving me to type them. whatever. so, now that school is out. "O, how i love ___" (yes i know how the song goes, but bear with me) "... SUMMER. i think i have officailly decided that i am not going to school next year. i will just play as much soccer as i possibly can, get my GED online and go professional from there. shut up, you know it could happen.. if i didnt want to play school season so much next year, then maybe.. but then i wouldnt be able to see all my... oh yeah MOST of them graduated. im so sad. but this is NOT a xanga, and i refuse to stoop to that level upon which EMO kids vent on how their lives suck so much and how terribly they need their friends and their music.it must be tough having to try to spend all of mommy and daddy's money all by themselves.. when weed and alcohol dont satisfy.. XANGA!! i will just think those thoughts and spare you all the pain and ... (cant think of another adjective.)

So, landscaping as of yesterday, which will go into next week, and starting at High next tuesday, appears that i will be extremely busy. YEAH. "oh, deja vu, only a different family member." "bu.. hmm.." now was that really necessary? oh, good times.

Last night i went and watched Shaolin Soccer. supposedly it was by a director with a good track record. that is definitely in question. it was like a cross between Kung Pow and Drunken Master (any of the set). so it was pretty funny, but i dont think i will ever watch it again if i had the choice. tuesday of Summer Sizzle (yes, im still going to call it that, because it has the tradition principal in its favor.) is supposed to be scary movie night, which was my idea, anybody remember that wednesday night when mark was asking for ideas.. that was my addition to the discussion, but ne way.. what movie can we watch? Halloween.. any of the Chucky movies.. IT.. The Grudge.. scary movie.. ok so the last one was a joke, but seriously, what are we going to watch.

Sunday night- soccer at Sports Zone. i will give out a schedule when i get one.
Monday night- soccer at Stamm's.
Tuesday night- softball
one other night of the week, soccer again at Sports Zone.

i really dont think i have ever looked forward to a summer this much. i hope i am not putting too much into this just to have my expectations demolished. it will be one of the last, if not the last summer of it's kind. there are at least 3 people i need to get caught up with, and if you are the same way, i would encourage you to not put them off. build and nurture your relationships during the summer so when you are on lean times (i realize that there are economical connotations to that comment) you will have those extra times to help you sustain the relationship. that is probably all i have for now. tomorrow is looking fairly lax which will be welcomed, maybe with some mowing, but welcome none-the-less. have a great day. Cair Paravel.. good luck on those last finals.

And then..

so i realize that now that SCHOOL IS OUT!!!! I should have lots more time to blog.. like once a day, and i realize that that would most likely be feasible, but not in the least practical. i also figured that after a week and a half of life those loyal readers that may or may not still exist, were ready to read about something other then prom. frankly, i am ready to think about something other then prom. ok, so i havent been thinking about prom persay, but..

so finals, as well as junior year closed up shop today. hopefully never to be heard from again! its still just doesnt seem like i am going to be, am practically already, a senior. i guess i should, after this last week, feel comfortable as like the oldest kids in the school. it wasnt the same without the seniors. not that things werent cool, but its just that they were there all year, then they just.. werent. reality check into the boards.

so it doesnt look like i got the job at school.. that may change some of my summer. i dont know if a job would be a good idea? mostly because it would take away some of the opportunities i am bound to have!! but also, i would really be putting in jeopardy some hours that i need to be flexible with. with everything i still have going this summer i will need to be able to get off when i need to, which is something i would have been able to do with the school job. but i guess we will see. no worries, you know?

So tonight i went and saw Star Wars III. umm, ne one want to go? if you pay, please believe i will go again. i was throughly pleased with the closure that was made through this installment. there were a few lacking areas, but the amount of everything made up for them. there is definitely no comparison with the other 2 newer ones. someone i was with made the point that, overall, the 3rd one belonged with the first 3 (4,5,6) in terms of how well done it was. it definitely gives you a new appreciation for what some of the characters went through during the transition. some ideas that you never would have thought of... i didnt feel like that was a spoiler, so i didnt mention it as such. apologies to ne one who felt that way.

it still just doesnt feel like i am done with school. for 3 months i dont have to worry about school, and homework and HAVING to get up at 6 every morning. no i only have to do that if i want to! but seeing as i am taking the ACT in june for the 2nd time, i guess i am not done with my studying for the summer. the worst thing about that test is that it is being given on June 11 which is the day after the lake night of A.G. (previously Summer Sizzle). not a total bad thing, i just wont be able to do ne thing after the lake. oh well, at that time i will still have like my WHOLE summer left! it will go by fast though, i know it will. be careful with your time, you only have the ability to cherish these opportunities once. take advantage. love life. congrats to the graduates.

Prom.. life moves on

It isnt that i have been putting this post off persay, but i really have been pretty out-of-my-mind busy lately. ok, so falling asleep 4 times yesterday doesnt really reflect that i realize but still. i dont know what my problem was with sleeping so much? i guess i should start at the beginning.

Friday, (yes 5 days ago, i know i am a terrible person when it comes to keeping this up) we had leadership training at Leenerts. i dont know what my expectations were going in to the beginning/end of my night, seeing as it ran from 7-12, but whatever they were, they were eclipsed when i walked in the door. one of the first people i saw was thomas, whom i hadnt seen in 3 weeks i think. i thought that was ridiculous, and he must have too, as we hugged in the kitchen for a while. ... think what you may, just dont stop reading. ne way. so the time was really good. i think i did a pretty good job of getting caught up on CP life, and getting them caught up on mine as well. we played the I've never game, the full contact way. dang. interesting, very interesting. without naming ne names. mullets, speed-demons, alcoholics (not really seriously there arent), dress wearing boys.. i dont want to give anyone the wrong idea about our youth group because it is really an awesome group of people. so friday night was a prelude, a sort of lead in to what was to come. the atmosphere and the conversation, and the all-around good time in general.

PROM
So not getting to bed until 2 might not have been such a hot idea. i woke up around 8 and left to get my passport stuff finished up around 9. i had a jazz gig at Washburn at 10 and got home at about11:20. i got some food, and tried to plan out my afternoon. i did a thorough cleaning inside and out of the car, got the corsage, did some other cleaning, got cleaned up and i got dressed at about 4:50. that was my plan all along. i had to leave the hous at about 5:20, which almost didnt happen because the parents thought they needed some pictures of just me.. definitely unneccessary. its not like i dont always look that good.. hmm.. but ne way, i picked jayne up at 5:30, and we went over to gage park for pictures. pictures, and a whole lot people! there were alot of others there, so the process was pretty long. we headed over to maddie's at about 6:20, and had a 5..6..7 course meal! it was very good. after liftoff (!) we went over to reed underwood's for some dessert. i guess pretty much everyone else had creme brulee, but i had this chocolate and whipped cream thing that was very good. another 3-500 pictures later we left for prom. we got over to school at about 9:30 and got our stuff checked in, which, as nathan made clear, was a bad move, and went in to the dance. i can appreciate that i am not, and maybe never will be a dancer, and i dont even think i could say that i tried my best, but i did try, occasionally. prom was fun. getting my jacket back wasnt. it wasnt getting the jacket, cuz that only took about maybe 2 minutes once i got up there, but even after getting in front of quite a few people, i was in line for an hour and 15 minutes. we finall got out of the school and back to the car at 12. we went and got changed at jayne's, and met jill and austin, our condensed group for prom and after prom, at 12:45. we went in, which almost didnt happen cuz jayne "lost" her ticket. after prom was pretty fun. i definitely was playing the wrong games if it was money and good prizes i was after, but i still had fun. i rode the electric bull, and definitely conquered that. i climbed the rock wall, and lost by inches!! we played this inflatable dodgeball thing, which the girls didnt like very much (go figure), and came away with a few crappy prizes. after-prom got over about 4:30 and we went over to jills from there. there were wayy too many people there for that time of the morning. after breakfast which was graciously provided by jill's mom, we went to the basement where everyone was talking about different things. i was not in the conversation mode by now. it may have had to do with the lack of sleep from the night before, but whatever the reason, i fell asleep in the middle of the floor, while everyone was talking. i was only out for about 20 minutes, but it helped a little bit. jayne was ready to go by then, and i got her home by 6 or so. i made it back to mi casa at about 6:15. im pretty sure i sped all the way home, enticed by a bed, and a shower.. mm.. sounds good now too. i got to bed around 6:30 and was out until mother's day lunch at 1. i most likely would not have gotten up had it not been mother's day, but i figured i hadnt been around a whole lot lately, so i did. sunday was definitely not productive, but that was okay. i went to bed at 8:30 and then woke up at 6 for getting ready for school. so that is prom. i liked it alot. quality time spent with quality people is definitely the way to go. i really appreciated our group of 4, especially jayne who had, no, got, to put up with me the whole night. thank you for making my night memorable. i dont know what next year at this time will bring, probably a lot of stress, but hopefully not.

Softball started. soccer is closing up this weekend. we have governor's cup in town, so people should come out and watch. 3 more days for seniors. very sad. :( :( and i have 7 more days. maybe i will get through this. i mean, i will get through this, and then have my whole summer to look forward to!! its going to be awesome. sorry for the long post. it had been a while though, and a complete run-down of prom was necessary. have a good week. finish strong.

Pertrubed upon arrival

I was really struggling with a title befitting its content. Does anyone else really dislike Dr. Phil? he is bad enough when i cant even watch his show, then they decide to put him on prime time.. i dont know what i am going to do.

to get you guys up to date.. last thursday we had our all school elections, in which susanna and i were running for all school Pres./VP together. it was a nerve-racking day during which i was unable to focus very well, but for the most part i was pretty comfortable with how things went during our speech and questions following. we both felt good about how the assembly had gone, but that did little to encourage the butterflies to migrate from my stomach. we were forced to waith until the end of the day to find out the results of the voting. we were informed that we had not won. kristen and maria were to be our new all-school team. i had a very mixed reaction to the outcome. i was very disappointed. i was looking forward to the opportunity to have such a leadership role in the school. on the other hand, i also realized that there would be immense time commitment involved in such a position, and given the current state of my academic performance, which isnt bad persay, just at a lack of discipline, and self motivation. at the same time though it is more then just about the election. as i said in my previous post, this would be an opportunity to see where i stood in the school. i found out, but not in the way i had expected. i went in to the election with the mindset that if i didnt win i was in poor standing with those who were my friends. as it turns out (and maybe it has more to do with being the loser and them being nice, but this is my time!) i was so encouraged by all the comments i received from those who had voted for me and were sad for me that i hadnt been elected. it was pretty amazing the way things worked out. i know kristen and maria will work hard, and they have encouraged me to run for rep. next year, but i havent decided on that yet.

i havent seen... anyone that went to NYC! i have seen pictures through Thomas's blog, and a few stories from mixed sources, but i am excited to see people again. oh wait. i saw lauren, anna and savannah on monday. so scratch half of the last comment. this weekend is fully called for. we have leafership training for missions trip on friday for 5 hours, and then saturday morning we have a jazz gig, and then we have prom saturdaty night. sunday will probably spent recovering from prom. i dont know whether i will plan to go to church after after prom and after breakfast.. and whatever else the night/morning entails. im excited. i just want it to be here, personally, so that i dont have to think about it, and talk myself into a frenzy.

this weekend i decided my soccer career was far more important then was my track career. aactually it wasnt by choice. in our game on saturday i got hurt. i dont really know what i did in terms of my leg, but let me try to describe the actions that led to me laying on the ground in a featal position of pain. i had taken a kid baseline and had come out to about the right corner of the 6 where i planted to shoot. the goalie who had the agression of a scarecrow decided he needed to do something for a change and dove out at me. he hit me just below the knee driving it inward. it twisted and he landed on top of it. i was pulled down in an awkward position which didnt help things at all, which brings us to now. it hurts with much activity, and after walking for a while. i have not been to track practice all week, and didnt run in the meet yesterday. i am questionable for friday. personally, i dont know whether i really want to run or not... i would love to do well, but it is sooo time consuming. i hope i didnt hurt it very bad.. how novel.. but i dont know what would be best right now. i hope to be able o go to the WR soccer game on friday, or at least next tuesday when they play our girls. kelsie i am still planning to come. if i can i promise i will.

11 days of school! poor seniors only have 7! good luck with that.