Florida, wedding, and THANKSGIVING!!

I try to space out my entries as much as possible, if you hadnt noticed that already. no, but really. senior year, how strange you are. i am leaving for florida on wednesday morning to go to my sister's wedding. pretty excited about that. wasnt sure whether or not i would be able to go, but by a sequence of events, or one in particular really, i am able to go. soccer just ended, being that event, on thursday, with a 0-0 (3-1 Loss in penalty kicks) to free state. it was a very difficult thing to take, being my last high school soccer game. but, that certain qaulifier makes everything a little bit easier to take. many on our team wont have the opportunity to play in college. i am very excited about the possibility, although, as it gets later and later the excitement fades a little bit. i have been assured that although recruiting isnt the furthest thing from the coaches mind, it is pretty far down the list. i understand that they are in the middle to later part of their seasons and that is their focus, but it is hard to wait in upbeat expectation for very long. maybe that is a spiritual problem as well... oh the things we realize when we start putting thoughts down as they come up. but, God is faithful, much more then I will ever be, that is for sure. Jacqueline and I are still going strong. bumps and small hills, but nothing that cannot be conquered through God, and the strength that He has shown us through our obedience. prayerful continuation. have a blessed day, and holiday season is upon us, which includes my favorite one: THANKSGIVING!! before long..

my school schedule has been one to drool over. starting 2 weeks ago, it goes something like this. 2 days one, one day off ( a wednesday no less!). 2 days on 2 days off. 3 days on 4 days off (2 days for parent teacher conferences). then, this week, like i said i am leaving for Florida Wednesday morning, so i have 2 days on and then a 5 day weekend. to top it off, we have next friday off as well. i dont know that this has ever happened, having this sporadic of school on and off. its very nice really. it should be cherished i realize, it probably wont happen again.

i have also realized that this is a year of "lasts" but amidst all of them, it is a year of firsts at the same time. my last home soccer game. my last high school soccer game. my last marching football game.. etc. i am starting to get the whole open door, closed door vibe where God's plans, as usual are much bigger then i could ever imagine. its hard. to see so many things that are familiar and easy, come to an end. the "firsts" come many times in the form of relationships, but also in other areas. keep your eyes pealed for ways that God may be bringing new things into your life.

so at conferences my parents got my grades, and they werent quite what i was hoping for. i dont know whether to even be upset at this point. 2 of the grades i received i didnt feel like were justified. its frustrating. its kind of like what craig deemed his "#1 worst feeling" in that i am apparently not living up to what my teachers expect out of me, because it is not my work that is lacking. that is a sickening feeling. i cant say that it is my #1 worst feeling but it is in the top 5. do grades even matter anymore. i should really write more often, but how many times have i said that and not done anything? Florida... here i come.. 80 degree weather is my friend forever!!

"the tide is high, and we're rolling on"

no way has it been a month since i updated!! i guess it feels like it has been that long, but i dont think i have ever taken this long to get back to my faithful readers. oh man. i do apologize ahead of time for the inevitable rambling i can feel coming on already. i have had my monster this morning, after a very strange series of events. let me explain them to you..

so, this morning was a band morning, and it being marching season, we were over at hummer to work on our show. after our game last night i wasnt very excited about waking up very early so i turned off my alarm. i woke up pretty late, and so i didnt get breakfast, and didnt have time to make a lunch. we got going late and were unable to get gas for the car that has been low for a while now. so after we took our band pictures our band director decided to let us go early if we werent taking individual pictures. it was about 9 or a little after when i got going. so i took this opportunity to go get some gas. i realized very quickly (before i got to the gas station thankfully) that i didnt have cash on me, and that i needed to go to the bank. i had another check to cash, so this was going to work out. i get to the bank, and decide that i wanted to go inside, which isnt very usual for me. i got to the door and it had only been open 10 minutes. low traffic=good timing! i also noticed that today is customer appreciation day.. go figure, this could be nice. i get my money, and the teller directs me to the opposite side of the room where they are giving things away to their customers. low and behold i get a FREE can of pop, (caffeine free mind you) chips and a candy bar just for showing up!! this is going very well. but, i am still low on gas, and it is coming up on 9:20. class gets out at 9:30 and 3rd hour starts at 9:39. i rush over to the gas station, where i reluctantly paid 2.29 for gas, when i had seen a station at $2.10!! dont remember the last time i saw it that low. that gas station was like a mile away, and the time was valuable. i dont remember seeing gas pump so fast before. God is on my side this morning!! i go to pay for my gas and it happens to be a gas station that sells monsters!! perfect, this will curb my appetite at least until lunch, if it doesnt ruin my day first!! but oh how worth it it is!! soo good!! i pay for my things, and i head back to school. i have to park like a half mile away but with the way things are going i could care less. i get into the building where everyone is waiting for me../in the halls for our tornado drill. not even late getting back to class. so i have a full tank of gas, most of a lunch, money in my pocket, and a whole lot of a lot of things in my system that make me feel amazing right now.. who would have thought? AND to top it all off, this would have been a perfect start to a day after a loss, but as it is, we won 4-1 on maybe the best game of the season from a team standpoint, and on a night where i got 2 goals! it had been a while since i had scored, and i had family and friends there to support me for our last regular season game. im shaking really bad, but i dont care.

we have had some tough games recently, and are 2-2-1 in our last 5 games, giving up 11 goals. last night was good for our confidence as well as our record. JC on tuesday, and probably free state on thursday. looking forward to the rest of the season. a new physics teacher! that is a positive thing! things may be improving IN school as well. this weekend is going to be... exciting!! there is a lot going on, and i am looking forward to it. western night on saturday. i know! me dancing?! jacqueline will be there, so that will make things all better. it will be an opportunity to get outside of my comfort zone. normally it wouldnt be such abig jump, but there are always exceptions. it will be okay.. it will be okay.. it WILL be okay! it will be fun too! man, i am hyper, and this is really hard to do when my head is going like this. i apologize for the lack of posting, but maybe this one will begin to make up for that. i hope to get back on track. i pray that God is blessing you the way He has been blessing me, in my/your attitude, and circmstances as well as just in what is going on in your lives. i have applied to JBU and to OCU and am waiting to hear back, as well as from those coaches. i will probably hear about school acceptance before i hear anything about soccer, them being in the middle of their seasons and "recruiting not being the last thing on their minds, but pretty far down the list" as was said to me by the JBU admissions guy i talked to a few times. he's a cool guy. it makes asking questions and getting information alot easier when there is someone you can appreciate talking to. have a good week, and weekend.